SURPRISE!!!

Oh how i love a surprise! Especially a surprise PARTY! It's so much fun keeping a lovely secret from someone and it's even more fun to be INCLUDED in the secret in the first place! Everyone going around hurriedly making plans, whispering invitations, gathering trinkets for decorations and cakes and cocktails. Maybe you weren't even included in the original plan, but when you were invited, when you were let in on the secret, it felt great and was something to look forward to. "We'll send you the e-vite because we want you to be there!" and then the evite doesn't come and since we are all so closely connected thanks to all this technology, it's sort of hard to make the same old excuses you used to make for people and harder to just face it that you might, in fact, be forgettable. SURPRISE!

word vomit

it took a long time to build them all up. foundation. basement. floor upon floor. rising. teetering. rooftop. and then it just took one small thing for that tower of words to crash down and out. like a volcano. or an avalanche. crushing people. covering every single thing in its headlong pursuit of escape. or maybe it wasn't so small. 

sometimes, when you've stored up words for a long time, your ability to discern size is revoked. same as when you see your reflection and, no matter what the surface, it seems like a funhouse mirror. even when you aren't in the funhouse. even when there isn't any fun in your house. even when there hasn't been any fun in the house for so long you hardly know what fun is anyway.